So I gave chase and found it finally
Slowly feeding from your head
And from my friends and from my family
So I grabbed it by the neck
For every lover you have ruined
I dug my nails into its flesh
And every life that you have taken
Slammed it’s head against the brick
It’s blood poured out onto the pavement
I stirred it in with dirt and spit
I will take a part of you
I made mortar from the mix
Tore every organ from its body
Broke it’s bone and fashioned bricks
I laid the mortar in between
I made a throne for hope to sit
Too long you’ve torn us into pieces
Firmly held onto our wrists
Today I buried you in me
I swallowed every inch of it

But I still see him dead in the parking lot
At the gas station just down the street
And I still hear my friend say
You know, you wouldn’t believe the things I saw when I was stationed overseas
But he somehow keeps smiling in spite of all of that
While I keep finding ways to push the good out for the bad
Oh, how selfish of myself
To always say that it was more than I could take
Like it was pain I couldn’t shake
Like it could break me with its fingers
Throw my body in the lake and I would slowly sink away
But the truth is it was sorrow that I made and wouldn’t face
See, I keep falling for the future after tripping on the past
And I am always tearing sutures out to make the anguish last
Like it defines me or reminds me
I’ve found comfort in my suffering
And uncertainty in happiness and death
Because what’s next is such a mystery to me
And I am terrified of all the things I feel but cannot see
Friends and family
Put your hand into my hand and lay your head into my chest
You are all that I have left here
We are all that we have left

the last lost continent - la dispute